when something effects your so badly, and hurts you so deeply your heart feels like its burning, and you cant escape from it, not even in your dreams.
So its my boyfriends birthday today, and I went way out of my way for him. I woke up before him and made him a full on breakfast. I bought him everything on his list plus more. I got his whole halloween costume together. I gave him plenty of birthday sex. And I even made his favorite dinner and dessert.
yet all he wanted to do was get high with his friend bryant. all he fucking wanted was weed. he wanted to go fishing. being with me was not enough for him on his birthday he wanted to be outside in the rain freezing cold smoking weed and fishing without me. awesome.
I will never forget the day I got you little buddy, you were so cute and curious about everything. I had all my friends hold you and they all freaked out about it but I didn’t. I loved you from the moment I saw you. I named you Noodle becau
se I liked the word and it worked for if you were a boy or a girl even though I always referred to you as a boy. You made a big impact on my life even though you were just a gecko, I love watching you eat crickets because you would wwiggle your tail like a snake and it was my favorite thing to watch. Nothing will ever replace you. Im so sorry I couldnt stop you from suffering, I tried to save you I really did. I love you so much Noodle :’( Rest in peace baby
